I've been thinking a lot(something i ought to not do). I decided that time goes by far too quickly. It's not like i wasn't ready for the year to end, I was, but it still went by quickly, almost too quickly. Now i'm left wondering what the hell i ended up doing for the last year. It seems like accomplished nothing but hurting people and just trudging along. I feel bad, and my motto is always to move on, but it's not that easy. You really have to go step by step trying to find your own way through the world.
I realized my friends are right to have an opinion and I can't stop them from doing something they'll regret. At this point, I guess I've learned to deal with it. To deal with not liking your friends. Is that normal? Not liking your friends?... I wonder how many of them actually like me. And that leads me to my insecurities.
I have this thing, where I'm sooo full of myself that I think of the bad things about myself just to hear people say they aren't true. But they are. Every single one of them. I probably need help. (Ha, but don't we all.) I guess that's just another day in my head. A very complicated head indeed.
